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The obligatory January 1st blog entry

It’s totally cliche but something about New Year’s Day just tends to have that affect on a person with all that “where have I come from, where am I going, what are my goals a resolutions” kind of thought process.

Well this year I’ve decided that I do need to set some goals but without the looking back with regrets or anything. Yes, 2012 was the single worst year of my life so far, but I surely don’t want to dwell on that. In fact, I only know that my last blog post was some time in September after leaving my last job and starting my new job. I’m pretty sure the content was not positive and that’s OK. It’s time to move on and gently embrace myself first, then whatever 2013 brings.

That said, I do have some things I’d like to work on:

  1. Make an effort toward health & fitness. I picked up a decent treadmill on Craigslist which is in my old office and is not the best place for it. J has agreed to let me move it down to the man cave where I can have a small corner to use the treadmill and store my yoga supplies. I got a great deal from over the holidays so I’m all set up for walking, meditating, and stretching in the cave.
  2. As for weight loss, yes, I’d like to drop some pounds but I’m not going to skip parties because “bad” food will be there. I’m not going to completely deprive myself, but I’m not going to pig out either. Focus more on intuitive eating and making better choices.
  3. Make peace with my past. Accept that my father is dead, my aunt is dead, things change and are never the same again but life goes on. And picking up destructive habits to help cope with life’s curveballs is not the right way to work through it. I need to find other methods.
  4. Stay out of my own head. Don’t think so much and wonder why things are they way they are. Accept it, don’t let it hurt me, move on, don’t make the same mistake twice.
  5. Choose my battles – with myself, I mean. There are so many hobbies I enjoy that I try to do them all, get burnt out, then don’t want to do any of them. I want to shoot for being away from home only 2 nights a week rather than 4 nights plus Saturday. If something becomes too much drama and not enough fun, I’m done with it. No more going out of feelings of guilt or obligation.
  6. Positivity – Just need to focus on the positive more often. Don’t dwell in the past, live in the present, look hopefully toward the future.Image

So there it is. Not too earth-shattering or deep. I’m not sure how often I’ll write here and what I’ll write if I do.

If anyone is still out there reading, thanks for sticking around. I hope you have lovely winter holidays and enjoy a happy, healthy 2013.

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Posted by on January 1, 2013 in Life


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Another month bites the dust

Yep, I’m still out here. I didn’t dry up and blow away with the start of the new year. I’ve been very focused on my 10 things to work on in 2012, one of which is to spend less time on the computer. Hence, my absence 🙂

So where do I stand with progress on those things? Well, pretty good. Although it’s been frustrating to say the least. Here are some highlights from some of those items:

Eat within SparkPeople calorie guidelines – Doing well with regard to that. I’ve eaten within the guidelines all but 1.5 days which is great. But the scale has not moved much at all and I’m somewhat frustrated. Every week it moves fractions of a pound. Tomorrow is my weigh day so I’m hoping to see a big jump in a downward direction. Stay tuned.

Do some form of movement at least 3 times per week. Goals are still to run the Annapolis 1k in May and then a 5k sometime before the end of the year. Running is a big struggle right now. I’m OK with the breathing but the shinsplints are going to be the death of me. I’ve been using the Personal Running Trainer app on my iPhone and moved to week 2 again. Again = I tried this last year and didn’t follow through so I started again. I really want to run for several reasons. 1. It burns a lot of calories fast. 2. it’s not nearly as boring as just walking and doing gawdawful boring exercise DVDs at home. 3. I like the way muscles I didn’t even know I have kind of ache after running. Like it’s working areas that nothing else works. 4. It is literally shaking the fat off of my ass. And that’s where it needs to be shaken from the most.

Today I moved to week 2 of the PRT app which is 4 cycles of alternately walking and running for 90 seconds. I could only do slightly more than half of it. I did some shin exercises and 5 minutes on the recumbent bike before leaving home. Then walked for about 10 minutes before the little voice in my ear (that would be the app, not actual voices in my head) told me to run for 90 seconds. Well, I made it about a minute, maybe slightly more, then walked until it said to run again. On the 2nd run I made it about one minute before the shinsplints set in and hobbled over to a bench where I stopped and stretched until the pain decreased. On the 3rd running round I could only do about 30 seconds before it hurt too badly to continue. So I stopped for a minute or two and walked. I didn’t even try the 4th and final running round as it started at the bottom of a hill and I wasn’t going to even try that. I even tried running on the grass for all of those rounds thinking it would be better but it still hurt like hell.

So I’m somewhat frustrated with the running. Sunday I’m going to an open house at Fleet Feet to get some advice. Maybe some new shoes too. I just don’t know what else to do. I really want to do this so I need to invest time and effort into getting this right. Stay tuned again 🙂

Fast food – Doing great there. No fast food in January, not even Chickfila. I did have a Diet Coke from Wendy’s but that doesn’t count.
Enjoying time with friends – Doing good with that. Spending a lot of time with my Stitch n Bitch friends. Even band is going well. At the start of the semester I decided it was a good time to assert myself so I moved up to 4th chair and asked for some piccolo parts. It was a good move and I’m happy. Would have liked to have some better songs for piccolo but I got 2 this time and that’s a good start.

Managing how I react to things – This is definitely a work in progress, but going well so far. A few weeks back I got the news that I have to be in Chicago for work at the end of February. I don’t like to travel alone and don’t like to travel at all during winter but I’m taking it well. Little bummed out that I will not be in complete control of my meals for a week, but I’m not going to worry about it and just manage it the best I can. I’m stopping in Michigan again for a few days before I head on to Chicago so it will be good to see family and friends.

Work less – I have managed this very well. Although I’m working a bit more for my full time job (we’re working on a major overhaul of our systems), I’ve cut way back on my part time job so I’m feeling less stressed about that and have more free time on weekends to recover from the work week.

I think I’m going to need to revise my weight loss rewards program. I had hoped to lose the 6 pounds I gained during Q4 2011 by now but I’ve only managed to lose a few. That means I’d have to lose like 12 pounds in February to reach that first reward of a spa day and I don’t think it’s feasible to lose that much, especially if I’m going to Chicago for a week. So I’m going to have to take a harder look at what is reasonable and repost.

So that’s my month in a nutshell. Things are going well for the most part and I can’t complain. Looking forward to seeing what Weigh In Wednesday has in store for me in the AM.  Until then….

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Posted by on January 31, 2012 in Life


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2012 – 10 Things to Work On

New Year’s Eve here was pretty low key. There was a festival and fireworks downtown but we were too tired to deal with swarms of people so we just stayed home like any other night. We did cook up a special filet mignon dinner and some special snacks though.

And now today is a new day, a new year, a fresh start. Today I will get my office back in shape for work tomorrow. With all the home repairs and drama of the last quarter of 2011, I started working in the living room to keep watch on all the action. So tomorrow it’s back into my office where things are more organized and comfortable.

Although it is a new year there are no resolutions to be made. That’s just far too much pressure for me. So I prefer to call them guidelines and goals for better living and will do my best to accomplish them.

  1. Eat within SparkPeople calorie guidelines as well as eat as intuitively as possible. Lose at least 40 more pounds this year.
  2. More patience, calm, and kindness. Not just to others, but toward myself as well.
  3. Do some form of movement at least 3 times per week. Goals are to run the Annapolis 1k in May and then a 5k sometime before the end of the year.
  4. Last year I ate no fast food. Do that again in 2012.
  5. Work on managing my reactions to friends & family so I don’t allow them to upset me so much. Work on not taking thing so seriously or and getting freaked out so much.
  6. Be more thankful for what I have/share more of what I have. More focus to be made on glass half full mindset.
  7. Enjoy time spent with friends and on hobbies I love. Try to not be so lazy about getting to rehearsals/meetings on nights when I tired or crabby.
  8. Be more outspoken about things that piss me off. Embrace my inner Norma Rae.
  9. Work less – resist the pull of the money or overtime pay in favor of time off spent with friends, family, and just being still.Spend less time online doing mindless things.
  10. Simple living.  The last quarter was stressful and we found ourselves eating more but also spending more. We managed to stop ourselves right around Christmas when we were at Crate & Barrel and about to spend $40 on new coffee mugs. I really wanted them. I wanted to replace all the mismatched mugs with a set of 8 clear glass cafe mugs (they are lovely, no?) but I realized how stupid it would be to replace our perfectly good, if mismatched, mugs when it was totally unnecessary. So we resisted the urge and I’m proud of us for doing so.

Whilst all of these things are important goals I want to achieve this year, I want most to continue to drop more weight so I can enjoy life to its fullest. Although I’ve gained back a bit of the 40 pounds I lost in 2011 (and have been somewhat sluggish lately) I do feel so much better than this time last year so I’m looking forward to feeling even better as more weight comes off.

With this in mind, I’ve designed a reward system to coincide with my plan. I am notoriously cheap when it comes to certain things so the rewards are designed to be somewhat decadent to help me 1. want to achieve them; and 2. force me to be kind to myself by not denying myself nice things when appropriate. The plan is a reward for every 10-15 pounds lost. And I’m being purposely vague about the weights for all of these goals cuz that’s for me to know. Some things are just too personal 🙂

Goal 1: Lose the weight I’ve gained back. No reward for that. My reward for losing 40 pounds in 2011 was to enjoy eating and sitting too much in November & December, thus gaining pounds back. Reward already spent.

Goal 2: Ten pounds lighter than goal 1 – Day at the spa. I’m hoping to accomplish this by the end of February, 2012 because I think that’s reasonable, but I also love to have a spa day in the dead of winter. I used to do this every February but I had an unpleasant experience one year and as a result haven’t gone in several years.

Goal 3: Lose 15 more (end of April?) Put a bunch of money aside to go to Maryland Sheep & Wool fest with stitch friends in May.

Goal 4: Lose 10 more – Get new summer clothes.

Goal 5: Lose 10 more. When I get here I’m going to purchase the LUSH Legends gift box. This weight is my original goal from January 2011. I didn’t make it but I made great progress. This is the last weight when I was really happy. It’s not my lightest though. If I decide to go lower and actually do it, the reward will be huge.

Ultimate goal: If I can lose 15 more pounds from goal 5, I’m getting a treadmill or elliptical for indoor exercise when it’s too hot or crummy weather outside. Also, I want to go back to Atlantis in the Bahamas or to Pelican Beach Resort in Ft Lauderdale using the money that’s sitting in my online bank account waiting to be spent on something awesome.


Posted by on January 1, 2012 in Life


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Year in review

OK I know this post is kind of a cop out, especially since my last post was a meme. I have tons of subjects to write about but I’m truly enjoying my lazy vacation and don’t feel like writing about any one topic. Most of the topics surround end of year/new year things anyway so I’m jumping into Ellen at Fat Girl Wearing Thin’s year in review meme which covers several things that have been on my mind.

Here goes…

1. What did you want more of in 2011 and did you get it?

Three things and I got them all. First – Job satisfaction. When a co-worker left the company back in March, the executive team offered me her job. I was a bit miffed when they offered the job to her to begin with seeing as I have 15 years experience in QA and she had none, but that’s all water under the bridge and I’m where I should be now and I’m happy about it. I was feeling stale in my previous position and starting to entertain the idea of looking for a new job when the opportunity came up so it’s a good thing. Second – getting more involved in my community. I really love this little town and enjoy being part of making it better and enjoying it. Finally – just getting out there. For years I’ve been a lazy slug but that’s over now. I was the person who always looked for the closest parking spot, avoided movement, avoided doing things that involved too much walking or activity. Now that I’ve lost weight I have much more energy to enjoy more things.


2. What did you accomplish this year that surprised you? I finally learned to knit! I made some dishcloths for my mom, a baby blanket for a friend, and a scarf for my dad. I’m so happy to have finally learned and I’m looking forward to making some socks next year.

I also did not eat any fast food in 2011. OK that’s not entirely true. I went to Chickfila a handful of times but other than that, no fast food. Not a single bite of McDonald’s, BK, Wendy’s, or (GASP) my beloved Taco Bell.


3. Did you read any memorable books or see any great movies this year?  What made it/them great?

I read a lot this year. Only 32 books compared with 35 from last year, but still a lot. My favorite of the year was Confessions of a Prairie Bitch written by Alison Arngrim who played Nellie Olsen on Little House. It was SO good. Funny, interesting, and a very good read. I highly recommend it. I also listened to A Little Bit Wicked by Kristen Chenoweth and The Help. Wicked was read by the author so it was even more enjoyable than if someone else read it. The Help was read by a number of women so the voices, accents, and inflection really helped bring it to life. Because it was so enjoyable to listen to The Help, I have no desire to see the movie. The women are in my head as I imagined and heard them and I worry that seeing the movie would ruin it for me.

As far as movies, well I don’t go to the movies often, maybe twice a year. So the only movie I’ve seen this year is the last Harry Potter which was great.


4. What was your proudest accomplishment in 2011?

Losing 40 pounds and sticking to eating and movement in moderation for most of the year. I’ve never stuck with anything health-related for that long. I learned a lot about myself in the process and I’m looking forward to getting back on track and losing another 40 pounds this year.


5.  Did you do anything spontaneous that ended up enriching your life?

Hmmmm. The only thing I can think of at the moment is last week when I called a plumber to address the toilet leakage issue in the upstairs bathroom. He came here, diagnosed, fixed, and I made all the decisions on my own without freaking about it too much. Looks like I could use some spontaneity in my life in 2012, eh?


6.  Did you meet any interesting people in 2011 for whom you are grateful to have in your life?

The gals from stitch & bitch for sure. They are the most welcoming, fun group of women and we all totally click. I feel close to them as if we’ve been friends for years. I could ask or talk to them about anything and I’m so grateful for that. I also got to know my friend Peggy better this year and very much enjoyed the road trip we took together and spending time with her. I’m really just SO thankful to have so many new friends here in Maryland around whom I can be my totally weird self.


7.  What was missing from your life this year, and do you have any desire to reclaim it?

Fast food and my family and friends back home. I don’t have any desire to reclaim the fast food, but I do still miss my family and old friends so much. My wish for this missing piece for 2012 is that someone will come to visit us here in Maryland.


8.  Was there anything that happened in 2011 that you could have done without?

I could have done without the multiple natural disasters which wreaked havoc with my new house and my checkbook. I’ve got my fingers crossed that we can get thru 2012, or at least several months of it, without any expensive home or auto repair expenses.


9.  What lesson do you want to keep locked in your memory as this year comes to a permanent close?

That I am strong of body and mind and I can tackle any challenge that’s thrown my way. Be it snakes, earthquakes, hurricanes, or family drama, I can get thru it and it will make me smarter, stronger, whatever in the end.


Posted by on December 30, 2011 in Life


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